Thank you all for helping make such a tough decision at the con, especially you lucky, yall really helped me get through a part of my life I seemed unable to close. If you all had just let me sit back and continue the plan, I'd be stuck with a shitty head with no nose, floppy ears, and crossed eyes. It was really nice of yall to help me realize that I shouldn't be nice to someone that did so much to hurt me, yall made me realize that I shoulda been the one that got outta that relationship, I was a blind fool in love, thanks for all the support. Leon, thanks for boi kissing me all the time and making out with me, XD, I believe I proved my straightness XP. Also thank you, Beeje, Rachel, Kate, C, for coming to my party.

2, thank you for not only listening to me, but inviting me back to your greenroom to have a beer and chat. You're more right about Ex's than I'll ever be. Thanks for telling me I did the right thing.

And thanks to everyone that made my AC experience wonderful! and Drama Free!

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My car "Freyja" (Pronounced Fray-ah) Is finally out of the shop after 3 weeks of amazingly shitty waiting. She earned a new nick name today from Eric calling her as "Calamity Jane" (also funny because her name is CJ... Like mine) because she is generally an unlucky vehicle, though I love her with all my being XD. So I was driving home at 2:00 am this morning coming home from Eric's and I got pulled over, JUST AFTER MY CAR GOT OUT OF THE SHOP. and omg, I don't think I've ever been that scared before, I was shaking, and then the cop let me off, no warning, no ticket, nothing, he was just like "have a good evening drive safe" I was like O_O;;; Thank you, and he drove off.

I also bought a Vanity plate this week that reads "SUNDER" to put on her.

I should be going up to see Turk soon, gotta fix her computer and cook her foods.

Btw Iceland rules! I <3 being Icelandic

Well Night all you cats and dogs

Love peace... and of course, chicken grease

-Sunder

So! How is everyone?

Last few weeks have been a vicious HELL for me, bad karma i think, but hey we all gotta keep on moving right?

My legs healing up, still got a slight limp, leg got caught in a board twisted it, knee popped right out. >.< the pills and the brace help a lot though!

My car should be out of the shop and the cuts from the accident are already healed up ^_^ My babys fender, hood, lights, and ummm the side panel? all got pretty messed up but shes getting surgery in car terms to fix her back to normal.

My birthday sucked, my friends didn't come, too short notice, but oh well, I'm 19 now! So I spent it alone, what else is new?

But hey, I'm getting used to this whole alone thing, I'm not sure its as bad as I thought it was. I'm going to Colorado this spring. Gonna take someone, Just don't know who yet, to meet my doggies and go dog sledding with me.

Been seeing a therapist, I really needed to XD, and hes helping more than I thought he would, at not only seeing the truth but also showing me my own folly's.

Playing guitar hero III is very soothing no matter what you do, it engrosses you so you cant think about anything else while you play XD

Thats about it, other than I've been around my friends and at work most of the time.

This has been a test of the emergency journal system, if this had been an actual emergency I probably would have screamed and ran around

-Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease
-Sunder

Well as many of you know I have a very mild form of schizophrenia, not MILD schizophrenia which is literally not a disease, I just have a light touch of it. My schizophrenia is considered of the paranoid type. Not that I think the FBI is out to get me, I just see something thats not actually there. Its much like having an imaginary friend thats... well, real to you in all ways.

Now, don't get this twisted, I'm not crazy, I can differentiate between reality and what my mind projects. But the scariest part of all of this is that: your know that feeling when your being watched? I can feel that, when something not real is staring at me.

But regardless you learn to ignore the hallucinations when you want to then when you're bored give them attention.

Anyway I'm sure your wondering what the point of all of this is right? Well, I've finally just found a way to deal with all of it, draw it, so thats what I'm going to do, I'm going to DRAW what a schizophrenic sees, and I assure you, it'll be both horrifying and interesting at the same time ^_^

-LP&CG
-Sundered Fox